behold , my sister on her semester break. on a 12 hours elongated car ride to Melbourne from the city of Adelaide( i think i spell wrongly)!!! she is such a fortunate chic!! never mind never mind, when she is back , it will be her turn to pay for me my holiday expenses!! wahaha!!

enough of my craps, let me exhibit some of the pictures that she took in the whole trip!

* drumrolls*
*Cymbals kiang*

wah... cant remember when was the last time i ever see the real snow or i NEVER see b4. i think i did , ICE KACHANG!! lolx

wow... cable cars. but the sky is alittle scary.... raining soon.

the girl in black is my sister, the other is her best pal , christiana.by the way , the wedges she wore, she copy me buying b4 she left for australia! You such a copycat!!! i own one b4 her! blehx!

Oh My Goodness! beautiful right?the conbination of green , brown and blue paints greatly to this picture. how i wish i'm there!
oh my , oh my~ admiring God's creation. He is such a great painter! i felt like diving into the picture! * bang! kana hit the monitor screen*

koala bear. can you see?can you see?

this kangaroo is lying on a sexy position. lolx


cute!!!! this is different from what you see in Looney Toons!
the city of Melbourne!! i saw new bag!! ahem! remember to buy something back for me!

* eye poppin* they are going against Issac Newton Apple theory!!!

* Eye popping and Faint~* pig head for dinner! lolx. better dun let my parents see if not they wil faint too!

after so much showcase of pictures, how my sister looks like??hmmm...

TADA!

i know what you guys thinking... we dun look alike right??? i know she looks better than me but i have a better character!lolx

one was hit with high blood pressure
another with multiple fracture after car accident
one almost got an injury
the shepherd of this band fall ill in taiwan
despite of so many attacks
we choose to praise the Lord
that we proclaim His goodness and mercy
before a birth of breakthrough
a series of trials and tribulations come after another
however this will not be our stumbling block
its gonna be our stepping stone
when the shepherds are away
we are to rise up and stand in the gap

Prophet Isaiah says
"When the enemy comes in like a flood, The Spirit of the Lord will lift up a standard against them".(Isaiah 59:19[NKJV])

"but no weapon that can hurt you has ever been forged. Any accuser who takes you to court will be dismissed as a liar. This is what God's servants can expect. I'll see to it that everything works out for the best." God's Decree. "(Isaiah 54:17[the Message])

just a little weary of some guys that i knew...
they arent aint good steward of others' possession.
in the area of finance...
one could forget to claim and not telling the one he owe
the other , surplus after buying shared stuff is gone.
i not covet for this bits of dollars...
but it show how UNFAITHFUL and IRRESPONSIBLE you are
before you can be a faithful steward of other's people finance...
DON'T ASK GOD WHY YOU HAVE NOT EXPERIENCE FINANCIAL BLESSING

great day today , was on my way the tuition kid's house in a taxi , i started a conversation with the driver who is also a christain. she enjoy the chat with me through out the whole journey. upon reaching the destination , she charge me only 5 bucks out of $13.90. wow. praise the Lord.

seriously , i in trauma.

Happy Father's Day

a song i wanna dedicate to my heavenly Abba Father:

Before the world begin
you were on His mind
and every tear you cried
is precious in His eyes
because of His great love
He gave His only son
everything was done
so you would come

Nothing you can do
to make Him love you more
and nothing that you've done
could make Him close the door
because of His great love
He gave His only son
everything was done
so you would come

Come to the Father
though your gift is small
brokeen hearts , broken lives
He will take them all
the power of the word
the power of His blood
everything was done
so you would come

Dear Abba Father,

Thank You for being a great heavenly Dad for all this years in this walk with You. i believe i not been a good daughter for all this while, however , my love for You is ever true and passionate.i always give lots of headache and heartache for You. time and time again , i make You disappointed. at times, i neglect You and ignore You when You trying to talk to me. Abba Father , i'm so sorry. i'm not perfect but this is not an excuse for me not to improve.

Abba Father, Your love is unconditional and everlasting. You always believe in me even no one believe in me. You always there for me , even i have so many friends around me. Abba Father , nobody else would understand me except You. You bottled up my tears and return me the Tears of joy and hope.Abba Father i thank You for the attention that i needed when i need a listening ear. i thank You for the assurance tthat You given me that You written in the word of God. thanks for the affection You given to tell me that i able to accept and love others for Your glory. Abba Father ,Your paitence and mercy that You have for me, make me wept and feel lost in Your presense.

Abba Father, its my fault to discount with You during the service about my earthly Dad. i wept like nobody business as never in my life i took the initiative to hug my earthly Dad. it "kills" to hug my earthly dad. Abba Father i'm sorry. Abba Father, as i sms my earthly dad , give me the courage and love to sms my earthly dad "happy father's day".i will forgive him for Your sake despite the things that he done when i young that hurts me so much. it may be tough but i will do it for You.he is isnt a bad earthly dad but he jus don't know how to love me.

Abba Father , i still thank You given me a great earthly father. teach me to be expressive towards my earthly dad. i believe through me , that my whole family will see Your glory.

i want to be the best daughter that i can be. thank You and thank You for everything. and i looking forward for fellowship with You. it seem like Father's day is practically everyday, hehe... my greatest phrase that i can say to You:

i love You and i love You, Abba Father! Happy Father's day!

Agape~ Kaili :]

its been more than a week since i last blog. haha, last weekend was an awesome experience in Emerge conference. evey year of Emerge will have mind-blowing thing happening. 'll elaborate more when the pictures uploaded in CHC webby :]

this week was a SSSTTREEETTTCCHHH week . term test with flu and on-off fever and cough. but i thank the Lord for strengthen me and divine guidance through out the whole test. once again , on my first paper , i sat at the wrong seat in the exam hall. how embarrassed. previous semester i went into the wrong hall but thank God not the wrong paper. haha.... my case is still fine , i have a fren who even FORGET to take his test. how pathetic.

a little rant of mine: a fren of mine tot that go clubbing is totally cool and hip and wat-so-ever. yeah it can be cool in my opinion but those clubber boast about it: " i club mah , i'm cool leh, people see me dance"... YOU are totally UNCOOL.
and you turn me off.
the humble does not tell anyone they're humble ,the proud does.
same for the cool does not tell anyone they're cool, the uncool does.
how sad the proud wouldnt know this.

a cry of mine:
Psalm 6:2-9
"Have mercy on me, O Lord, for I am weak; O Lord, heal me, for my bones are troubled. My soul also is greatly troubled; But You, O Lord--how long? Return, O Lord, deliver me! Oh, save me for Your mercies' sake! For in death there is no remembrance of You; In the grave who will give You thanks? I am weary with my groaning; All night I make my bed swim; I drench my couch with my tears. My eye wastes away because of grief; It grows old because of all my enemies. Depart from me, all you workers of iniquity; For the Lord has heard the voice of my weeping. The Lord has heard my supplication; The Lord will receive my prayer. "

why?

so funny ... i have long list of To-Do list that is as long as a receipt, i still wanted to blog.just excited for the event in few hours to come!

satisfied with my previous entry. i think i being inspired by people like Ian especially , Julia , Kang Wei etc. in their style of writing. if there is an award call best Christian bloggers , i would nominate Ian.(read his blog and you will know why).

i like the way they express themselves in blog , simple words yet deep that give me deep impression.no grandmother story like someone with surname Yap(if you know who you are, i like reading your blog BUT just that you tend to have repetition, pure faith i should say about you , not dismoralised you , stil love yah with Jesus love k!haha. Bleahx)

in conclusion , its not about comparison between bloggers.

about 17 to 18 hours from now will be our long-awaited conference...

EMERGE!


i so excited man!!! wonder what is the next step and challenges for another level as a youth! Expectancy is the seedbed for miracles!

in a Boulevard Of Broken Dream
a heart that sings Tiger Lily for the past one month
feeling like Stop Crying Your Heart Out
Sometimes has Straight Jacket Feeling
yet want to sing Accidently In Love
i started Learning To Breathe
and motivated by I Dare You To Move
don't wanna wait till Wake Me Up When September End
and stop procrastinating My Paper Heart

He is always faithful
my heart sings to Him How Great Is Our God
with the passion of Consuming Fire
that makes me I Could Sing Of Your Love Forever
on the Solid Rock i stand
Take All Of Me only You can
Touch me with Your Presense
and I'll be STILL know You are God

a fictional post

am i scatterbrained?
i would not put my household on jeopardy.
i was happily settle down for toil
and a call from the domineering figure of the household
blasted me , accused me.
'm abt to blubber ,
but i didnt as there are 8 DOTAs.

this is not the first time i face the music.

i believe i didnt execute it.

brand new skin

new blog address , frenz , pls take note:


http://legacymaker.blogspot.com/


definitely is not about my face or body skin, is my blog skin.
created by Julia a.k.a Zu-li-ya, thanks for this birthday gift. love ya! :]
ytd , i watch over the hedge with Irenaus & xing lian. its really a show that worth my money to watch.! next movie, X-MEN : the last stand
some part of my blog still looks abit funny , fine tuning in progress , jus bear with me
its been a long time since i last blog....

leader C, J.

" You wil never be a success until you produce a successor."

leader B, T.

" You never play drum good enough until your neighbour play as good as you."

are'nt they both telling me the same thing?
however , its convicting and impactful.

Despite my busy schedules, meeting deadline this friday , rushing endless amount of report, studying endless amount of notes, doing multiples of follow-up, nevertheless, shall pens down something here for the thoughts manifested.

remember the story of Hannah?
The Lord close her womb , her rival also provoked her serverely , to make her miserable , because the Lord has close her womb. Year by Year, in verse 7 of 1 Samuel chapter 1 says , she was being provoked, went up to the house of the Lord, she wept and did not eat(i believe she is fasting).

in verse 10 , she was bitterness of soul ,and prayed to the Lord and wept in anguish. then she made a vow in next verse and said,

"then she made a vow: Oh, God-of-the-Angel-Armies, If you'll take a good, hard look at my pain, If you'll quit neglecting me and go into action for me By giving me a son, I'll give him completely, unreservedly to you. I'll set him apart for a life of holy discipline. " 1 sam 1:11(the message)

she sound so direct huh in this version of bible... anyway, she didnt stop here, she continued to pray. in verse 12 to 14, Eli thought she was drunk, she is not and she said:

"And Hannah answered and said, "No, my lord, I am a woman of sorrowful spirit. I have drunk neither wine nor intoxicating drink, but have poured out my soul before the Lord. Do not consider your maidservant a wicked woman, for out of the abundance of my complaint and grief I have spoken until now." Then Eli answered and said, "Go in peace, and the God of Israel grant your petition which you have asked of Him." And she said, "Let your maidservant find favor in your sight." So the woman went her way and ate, and her face was no longer sad. "
1sam 1:15-18(NKLV)

and of course , she give birth to a son , Samuel.
for Hannah was barren , she never allow her barren-ness to determine her destiny. what exactly is barren?

from The American Heritage® Dictionary of the English Language:
barren = Not producing offspring. Incapable of producing offspring.(click )

hear her instense prayer she make, the trivialing of her soul. how much she hunger for an offspring, how much she want to be found fruitful in God's sight. she make a vow and promise God that if God were to bless her (open up her womb actually) , she will offer her firstfruit( samuel).

situation seem unfavourable for you and i, are you gonna give up , or stay faithful ? fought so hard and no fruits produce and seeds remains, discourage??
whatever that comes out the mouth of God will not return to it void.
a mighty man may fall , but God will lift him up 7 times.

every revival is inside the spirit man, it bores out of pain , out of a woman's pain who give birth.

"Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; For You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me. " Psalm 23:4

i am in the situation of Hannah.

back to blog

past one week was pretty busy for me, busy with school & cg ministry. for last monday & tuesday was quite an "eventful" day , i could have an auntie scrapping her stubborn dead skin under her feet in front of me in the bus.furthermore, that time i not even have my dinner. what a journey on the way home.but her doings brings me a revelation. a revelation of being repressive. how disastrous can repressive be? just like the dead skin under the feet, the more you dont bother to have regular and right cleansing agent , it wil accumulate more and have difficulty removing as result . when removing it , it is painful right? you just hope to leave it as it is. same for us , repress the things of the past disappointments and hurts , if it is not properly dealt with, it will leads to resentment( painful removing of dead skin) . use the right cleansing agent , Jesus christ. to lift up the repression to the Lord , you must :

PUSH : Pray Until Something Happen

pray until there's a breakthru in the spirit realm

haha... how interesting.

let me bring you forward to friday:



a slice of ghetto queen chronicle. haha. so you think you are smart?.
and it is my first time to do supporter fliming for them.

at friday night , a great man of God has come to town . he is none other than Pst phil . it was a word in season once again.

the words his said that i never forget:
"in times of trial is not gonna make you lose everything, it is an opportunity to gain everything."
and
"a prayer( effective fervent) of man , is the man God uses"

it really challenge me to go up to another level. thanks pastor.

i realize nowadays i post alot of food entries and food images, i think i can be a host for makan-sutra. haha, what a joke.somehow or rather , food is quite a good analogy for revelation or thoughts, moreover food is topic of interest.

i have come to the end of second week of my semester, this is a long, dead , super sian semester. doing my final year project for this semester, my group members are pretty ok, still can work with them , though most of frens was shock to see who i work with. (lolx) another 15- 17 weeks to go. oh my gosh!

i just wanna have a child-like faith,
pure and innocent,
failure is not a consideration.
most importantly,
low in pride, 0% doubt.

my labour day rewards from my pals in church. ate at suki sushi buffet of hougang plaza outlet . on your left you can see is our soft , jellyish and fabulous , Mister chawamushi. oh my goodness , it melts in your mouth and left with the delicious essense of steam egg( in fact , it is steam egg)

on your right , you see colourful plates of sushi. we ate total of 20plus plates!!! i have a great appetite!

on your left once again , my all-time favourite salmon sushi!!! with lil' dipping of the light soya sause plus wasabi, it brings up the wonderful taste of this raw salmon.
the snapshot of conveyor belt

tat's me ! eating sushi~ my new short cum tail hair image .
the con- ver-yer belt.

the trinity of oyster

i still sick as usual and it is few hours b4 N241 saturday CG. the night before i was sharing to someone about the oyster story by Ee Kai Li(hahaha!).

---> this is an oyster. i know it look delicious, lets go back to the main point. yeah , the parts of the oyster that we can eat is the meat inside (Definitely not the shell), the stuff that we can treasure is the pearl.

our life and our trinity being is just like this oyster. the shell as your body , what others see on the outside of you, the meat as the soul and the pearl as the spirit.

nobody will know whether the meat is still fresh until they open up and see. Some are rotten(yeeks!) , some are ready to be serve(yummy). those rotten one will produce pungent smell and thats y we find some people "stinks"!(agree?). same situation in ministry, position is just the shell . character , attitude and your relationship with God is being the meat and the pearl. we always hear this from pastor , "cornerstone of our character" , cornerSTONE = pearl.the pearl in the oyster takes time to produce,character that is the "hardest" part to master and it takes time to cultivate. what substain the VALUE of the oyster is the pearl,this true for us. the things that substain us is our character. i do met people carry the "shell" around, how pathetic.

which option are you??:

1. empty shell
2. shell with rotten meat
3. oyster( shell , meat and pearl)

haha... change a little of my blog layout and the skin colour , plus my tagboard also change colour. soon , i wil be using a new blogskin which was done by julia. ( love ya!)

falling sick for the past one week and not totally recovered, what a bad beginning to start my school term.

ignorance towards problems = irresponsible.
how true. my new conviction

roaming around the crossroad
do not know where to go
staring at both signboard
that will change my destiny

the choice i make now
will cause my dream to die
a dream that i always wanting to be
but i have to let it die

for He is faithful
and gave me greater dreams
and open my eyes to see
what i can be more than i dream of

my dream is more than about me, its about Him, the Man who carried the eighty kilogram Cross.

my school term has start and i am NOT excited about it.

After my last day of work (18 april)for CPF progress package customer service officer, i rush down to esplanade to me my poly gals plus my gang of girls. we meet pretty late at night at 8plus. we went to this tea-cake boutique call the V Tea Room .
images of the V Tea Room:

the V Tea Room has a european tea hous setting , the utensil and furniture and decoration
these food we ate:



the actual size of this Delicious Smoked Salmon Omelette is about the size of your both hands . the salmon is taste like the sashimi which we can taste the inner most riches of salmon taste. for salmon lovers like me, this will make you feel high!~

oh man ,this is a feast for Vegetarian! there's not beef in it as you see the name of the dish. it is mixed with button mushroom , shitake mushroom and another i-dun-know-whats-the-name mushroom which is in the size of a women arm.


the mask looks a little out of place.

Darren and the White Mask.

Hui qin drinking the European Apple tea

hee hee, tat's me tasting the food.

Mr Shegar , General manager of the V Tea Room, chatting with Mr Darren Sim.

after tasting so many Delicious food, we have a chance to eat thier signature cookies. cookies have the flavour of rose , lavender.And usually all this smell is from outside in , now is inside out. we even taste LAKSA(?!?!) cookies, Hebi hian( shrimps) , vanilla pod cookies... too many bizarre cookies to mention.

a great thanks to mei mei for bringing us to this great place. the service there make you feel like a royalty plus the atmosphere is great.

took the voucher that Denise and Nick has given me for this bag. cool right? i love it. thanks to you both! *huggs*.

the camera-man hand is lil' shaky.
haha... tat's me, carry the bag . the green stuff on my right hand is crumpler handphone pouch.

He had no servants yet they called Him Master.
No Degrees yet they called Him Teacher.
No Medicine yet they called Him Healer,
No armies yet kings feared Him.
He won no military battles yet He conquered the world.
He committed no crime , yet they crucified Him.
He was buried in a tomb yet He lives today.
Feel honoured to serve such a Leader.
His Name is JESUS of Nazareth.

One day you are not back to Him
He will never shut the doors of heaven
No matter how long it takes
He is always there waiting for you

in this easter, my greatest news i can share to you , my dear friends.

so here I am on My knees
in the Garden of Gethsemane
will You take this cup from My hands
here I'm praying all I can

My lovely twelve have fallen asleep
they still can't stay an hour with M
every soon the guards will arrive
they want Me dead but they'll take Me alive

as a fight ensue, and one lost an ear
I still love him and he'll know Me a healer
I look at one as they drag Me away
there was Judas without a word to say

I was sent to one who looked lost at Me
he proclaimed no guilt in Me
the rest of them wanted Me dead
he washed his hands off this matter instead

as they tore those stripes right on My back
thirty nine stripes on Me to be exact
I knew in eternity there would be no time
and one of them denied Me three times

on the Via Dolorosa, the Way of Suffering
some mocked Me, while some were crying
an eighty kilogram cross on My back
as a thorny crown rests on My head

nailed to the very cross I carried
lifted up for the world to see
I know that this death was temporary
this time it was the sin of the world on Me

I went down to hell to claim what's Mine
the souls of the ones who were lost in time
the keys of hell is now in My hands
the devil has no right to attempt

so now here I am for the world to see
as I ascend to where I should be
one day the sun will lose it's flames
then the world will know who truly reigns

written by: Ian Lim.

who shall I send
who will go for Me
to the ends of the earth
who will rise up for the King

here am I , send me.

i saw the backstage works of easter performance. its alot of sweat and effort put in to put up and set up the stage.i was helping out with my fellow strikeforce members. after then, left me, ian & darryl have our dinner together.

we have Oyster omelette, ba chou mee , mutton cum chicken cum beef satay and a big mug of sugar cane juice. the place we eat is call wat bedok 85 i guess. i agree with ian , the ba chou mee is real nice ! shall go there eat again next time!

someone, who has rejected to become a cgl 3 times for being ask by his leaders. wow, his reason is :" this is not what God wants me to do now"

when opportunity comes , we might just take it without asking God about it.
this happens to almost every single one of us , especially promotion in ministry.

Opportunity + wrong timing = everything bad.

how true. this is what i call he who fears the Lord our God shall prosper.

rant:
no one has the right to label us as failure except God, so you just shut up shut up , just shut up shut up!
i know its wrong for me to react this way. i rather lose this friendship than letting it affect my spiritual growth.
sorry for label someone who is a spoiler. you are forgiven :]

geylang is more than a man's favourite hang out, its also a food paradise. with my few strikeforce darling-> julia & denise, we have a great feast!

i forgot to take pictures of the food. we have oyster omelette , stir-fry sliced fish with mixed veggie and beef hor fun! yummy and YUMMY!

i received another birthday gift , a $100 CRUMPLER voucher! love denise & nick lots! muack muack! haha. anyway , this year birthday is a memorable one!

gals , lets have dou jiang you tiao for our next dinner fellowship!

a little rant:
a person with good attitude is open to correction
a person with good attitude does not think they are always right
a person who is mature does not make a big fuss over small matter
a person who is mature will submit to authority

so are you the one i just mention above ?

i being taken for granted for my friendship , he is a my birthday spoiler!

hell knows no fury like a woman's wrath.

you better dont dare me! you have just stepped onto my tail!
i wanna be forgiving...

the harvest is here but the labourers are a few.

how true.

this quote is a verse from bible. we often comdemmed the lost instead of salvage them. we often focus on their attendance and neglected their life. in allow the power of God to move in your frens u reaching out, alot of things we need have breakthru before we can reach out effectively.

its often that fear grip us , afriad of rejection , afriad of losing the frenship after invitation from you.however, it is always we make the first step and often things turn better than as you thought.

admiting your weakness is not losing your self-worth , yet is true humanity for those people who wants to be successful in kingdom of God , the power to break the yoke of pride is admiting your weaknesses and change.

to say, i am weak. but He who is in me is Strong.

i have met people that they will never allow people to correct them on their weaknesses , they will result in insecurity and attention-seeking. how sad it would be if the person is someone you call them as " good fren".

anyway , enough of my thoughts.

today i just saw arthur's and reid's new hair colour. one red , one green , machiam like traffic light. ( trying to get their pictures and post it here). ian's one is cool , his hair machiam set on fire. for edwin , he such a poor thing, he only can happy for a few hours of his new red hair colour then after that he have to dye black as he is still in NS. awww.... so sad. saw bro boon de, real cool and stylo as he carry off real well. i think i'll dye my hair a week before emerge conference!

for all the revelations i been writing in this blog , 95% of it is my personal revelation.

hey friends, i have alot of additional pictures on my birthday post, feel free to have a look.

ice age 2- hilarious and funny amd enjoyable movie. some parts of the movie has biblical concepts , concepts of Noah's ark and Moses part the red sea.to those who have watch the movie, all the arctic animal walking towards the wooden boat( sort of, but its not a wooden boat actually) that salvage them from the flood. another part is where scrat the sabred-tooth squrriel, it "part" the ice berg which allows the water to flow out. haha...







manny needs to listen to pst kong msg on choosing the right partner as he wonder tat elly is the gal for him.

come here to blog a little. suppose to be my solitude(sabbath) day, all thanks to miss nurul that today i got to work.anyway , its ok ,afterall, but i could understand how it feels to work 8 days consecutively in a row. from today onwards , it will be one-man shift, i probably bring all my snacks , books and MP3 to maximise the time over there.

i happened to drop by at enoch's blog:

Purpose has pain with it. Sometimes the pain associated with purpose, is when you have to make sacrifices of your time, of your money, of your energy. When you have to say no when everybody else is having fun, and you have to say no, because you are focused on your purpose.- A. R. Bernard

i totally agree. Purpose has pain with it where by you have to say NO to unfruitful relationships, because you are focused on your purpose.

got to go for work.

ciao~

hmmm... what to write for today? today is the friendly chap stanwin's last day of work.kinda se bu de him to go though we work for 2 days together. further more , from today onwards , the shift will be one-man show.wont be too boring cos there are other CC staff so stil quite okay la. kids there are really really very cute wor! but i seem to be quite unpopular among the kids unlike jia wei and stanwin.

tmr i will be solitude, so pls pls , dun msg me unless is something urgent.

sayonara

he who decides knows the right way
he who does not decides lost his way
making decision is not easy
to be truthful is to be set free

love God with truthful and sincere heart
deception will hurt Him much
for He first love us
why don't we listen to Him in the first place?

to obey is better than sacrifice
to be truthful rather than deceitful
truth may hurts
but deceitful hurts more

listen to Him in the first place
thus you will not lost your way.

this morning , i went with julia to have a haircut at chinatown. she do her rebonding , i have my haircut. the hairstylist abit duh... keep touching my hair and say " xiao jie , your hair very nice to touch , soft and silky" . despite i din get my desired hairstyle i want but my hair seems to become much softer. lolx . human is hard to please. i wish to have warvy hair as i have super straight hair . for people with curly hair , always wanted to have straight hair. human beings are so mah fang, agree? to annouce to everybody...
I NEVER REBOND MY HAIR BEFORE!
and
NEITHER I WEAR CONTACT LENS!
Everybody has been question about my hair and eyes. couldnt blame, God created me to have "perfect" or i should say good condition features.( thick-skinned, i am)

my new haircut worx.
image by Kaibernacle @ macromedia fireworks MX

thank God for peggie , julia and edwin for blessing me a book on my birthday, Drawing Near by John Bevere. the word pierced my heart like a double-edged sword. i have read until the 2nd chapter.Communicate with Him is more than asking Him to bless us , it is to know Him and love Him, the greatest thing you can have in your life.

so guys , lets learn to be like moses in book of genesis and samuel in the book of samuel. their obedience pleases God. For moses, when he saw the burning bush which is not comsume , he did not step back but take off his sandal and move forward. for samuel , he thought Eli called him "samuel". so he responded fast. it show how steadfast is he the moment he was called.i believe in life , Holy spirit might prick you over alot of things . at times , it is always the unfruitful desires that cause us to doubt Him.

Question yourself for what i have just said.
the above context is done by me. not copyright from anyway .

my rant: i'm feeling free for being truthful.ahem...

i have nothing to say about work as is pretty tiring . Bored to DEATH. nothing to do will also make you feel tired. for only few days of work.

uncle cow, you have a interesting name arh! stanley + edwin = ???????.

a long day yet fruitful

attending second service in the morning , awesome service by pastor Richard roberts. i witnessed the power of God heal His people that demostrate His mercy and love. deaf hears , pain gone... etc.

in the afternoon , went for a lunch with the close ones at Rocky Master , Singapore Expo. :] ( you know who you are)

at night , Strikeforce ministry sing a birthday song for me. after training , i went to have fellowship with my fellow jie mei & brothers.

i even meet up with wei li . to wei li: thanks for making the effort to arrange a meeting with me. i appreciate ! (unlike someone heartless, you know who i talking about)

this is from kangWei


from wei li! thanks gal!


its from a guy, no la, its from my one of the besties in poly , hui qin.
handmade roses, nice right? look like real one.


trendy golden bag from Famous5 gals ! love ya lots ! :]


drummers-must-have from claire!


body shop facial set from jaslyn , jasmine and alot to list! ha...


this is from julia , peggie and squrriel Edwin.

more pics to come....

happy birthday ~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!
all praise to my Abba Father, an appointed day that He created me. since is my birthday , let me tell you the whole adventure of KaiLi's birth.

in 1986 1st April 8pm, a wonderful lady name maggie tan ( my mother la) having her chicken rice and suddenly she feel tummy pain. she went to the toilet and realized the water bag burst. this show something , i gonna come into this world! she was bearing the labour pain. to say , she is a lady of tenacity as she bear the pain for 8 hours! she was in difficulty to give birth to me.she was sent to pregnancy room then nursing room , and even ICU(Intensive care unit).

by april 2nd 4am, Ee Kai li was born and the waste my mum releases as the first object i met.(eeks..)

this is obviously told by my mum and is true story. :]

Today is my first day of work at the community center which is about 10 mins walk from my house. the distance wise is good but the working hours is sucks!argh! whatever. i met different kinds of people at the community centre. make new guy friend but didnt have chance to exchange number , is alright , i hope one day i can met him few days later down the road.

"today testimony i wanna share is that i wanna thank God for blessing me a friend and he join me for service and now is with me for celll group. i wanna reach out to alot of my friends as much as i can, to glorify Him and to help to grow the cell group"

Raymond Cheng Chia Liang , age 11+ . members of N241.J-team

can you see the conviction of this boy??? it took me at the age of my upper secondary years to share such a convicting testimony. 3 cheers to Raymond and praise onto the Lord!

to those-who-know-who-they-are :
words could not express my gratittude towards you guys, thanks for running the race with me. thanks for the help that you guys has given me. most of all, i thank God for His goodness and His love for me. i love you brothers and sisters.

agape, kai li

supp papers grade :PASS!!! woot~

been busy doing my freelance designing project... it takes my whole week and now i have time for bloggie!! this week is quite " happening " .(hee hee)

26/03/06
Cg outing at Sentosa!!

Image@ Macromedia Fireworks & Adobe illustrator



artisite image taken by Ee Kai Li using Hewlett Packard digital Cam
~brothers' soccer game!


Before this happen , our beloved brother valor frisbie is stuck on the coconut tree. the members use the 5 balls that we brought( You name it , we have it , which ever type of ball you want) to hit the frisbie down. we ended up about 3 balls stuck on the tree. as you look at the picture , TK was that guy half naked, stand on enoch's shoulder to get one of the balls. :D


Lingling( the 1st lady):i'm the first! i'm the first! whoops, my slipper!


my two dearest , sweetest , prettiest, awesome and HIGH CALIBRE babes!! love you gals very much!!! red:SinMan , Black: Jennifer ;]

27/03~30/03

one of my satisfied Design for my customer !

i think i can do better. hee...

Bible study at YMCA
Pastor Audrey was teaching us in Authority for Victory classes. one thing that she preach reminds of us as the salt of the earth.

"You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt should lose its taste, how can it be made salty? It's no longer good for anything but to be thrown out and trampled on by men. "
matthew 5:13

how do we preserve our taste as a salt? we must be season with the word of God. how word of God can season us as salt of the earth? it is when you read His word , studying His word and most importantly, apply ( season) the word of God in our life. as you obey , He promise us that we are the head and not the tail , above and not beneath(Deut28:13 ), thus you will not be thrown out and trampled on by men. when you loses the flavour , in a dish of food , with or without you will be nothing .However, with the preservation of the taste(which is anointing , calibre , substance .etc) your presense makes a different , makes the dish of food taste better.

Government project service officer
my new temp job ( Thank God) . however , i feel there is some miscommunication between my agent and CPF...shall not elaborate. i pray that this weekend will have smooth operation for me. my birthday is this weekend!!

Outing with Stephanie and Lay chen
we have a great fellowship at causeway point. we laugh like nobody business and we shop a little and take neoprint! its been a long time since i last took...

my rant:
sometime its sad you have people close to you , yet they NEVER believe in you, they claim as your goodfren .i dont really consider as inner circle friend. whenever i soar high , you will try pull me down with your sceptical looks. hey let me tell you , i will not be affected by what you say , by what you think i of me, i know to you i will always lousier than you but i know i'm the head and not the tail. kingdom of God is not about competition , is not about who deserve to rise up or who rise up faster. if you think others are childish , please look at yourself before saying others. people who is not open to correction their attitude SUCKS. i pray i can love you more but you are forcing me to draw a line between you and me. you are infinitely miserable & insecure.bible says He who exalt himself will be humbled and he who humble himself shall be exalted. YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO LABEL ME AS A FAILURE. God has the right to label me as who am i.

the above character mention is fictional, any resemblence of a person is purely coincidence.

WAHAHAHA! KAI LI"S BIRTHDAY ON 2ND APRIL!! MARK YOUR CALENDER!

increase my capacity to love, i pray...

Irresistable Love

a simple life of mine
doing the things day in day out
never aware of Your presense
never expect You'll be mine

remember the days i touched by You
remember the days i encounter You
rememver the days i started to say
i love You i love You

every tears i shed
You bottled it up
tears of mourning and sorrow
returned to me as tears of joy

my experience with you
will never be a memories
but it will be
my daily life with You

when i drifted away
You never walk away
waiting for me
and believe i'll be back

at the end of the day
i may hurt You
i promised You
i will never lose You

You make me fall
fall into a river
a river that ever flows
called the Irresistable Love

today(23/03) i went to jasmine birthday BBQ at downtown east... went there machiam attending usher outing like last time. haha...

jasmine is schoolmates , study the same course and we are also in one same body of christ! :]
jasmine is also usher IC in our church , probably i was once like her in usher, so we are close also.

People thought that i don't like usher so i leave the ministry. however, i made my departure for my call in cell group.And of course , its an appointed time thus i made my departure. before i left usher , i did my part by rise up 2 more helpers to take over my role and responsibility. to go up another level as a leader in any ministry , you must rise up people to take over your position before you move on.

usher ministry has given me unforgettable experience.i learnt alot alot of things. my leadership skills was trained in this ministry, i can said what i am right now , 60% of it was being moulded by the leaders in Usher ministry. i also learnt how to smile ( haha), how to deal with people .more than this , i've become a more organised person, a person who is particular with details.(haha) talk abt this , been in Usher ministry for about .... 3.5 years. that's long... i remember i win an award as the Usher of the month for being faithful and available.

after all this ,i would like to thanks to these various leaders in Usher Ministry:

• Pastor Derek ( of course lah , ministry leader)
• Bro Bao tian ( my 2 years plus section IC)
• Sister Beatrice (she trained me to be team IC)
• Sister Yew mei( she makes me smile)
• Sister Jing Jing( she is there for me in my darkest hour)
• Sister Cai Yun
• Bro Gabriel Ho ( haha, you make a legacy in my life)
• Bro Wayne Chong( 2005 preaching challenge winner, You have taught me matthew 25. i taught other with Matthew 25 and their life changed)
• Sister ShanShan a.k.a Isabel ( You make my last days in Usher a memorable one!)
• Sister Shu Xian( my first team IC)

not forgetting my old friends in there!( too many to list!)

it seems like i doing promotion for usher ministry... i just wanna share some experience i have though i didnt put it in detail.

courtesy from CHC.org.sg

haha, anyway... waiting for jasmine to send me the BBQ pictures!!!

I need a job !!! HELP!!!

its been quite sometime since i last blog. been busy study for my Software engineering supp paper ( in fact , most of the stuff couldnt get into my mind. UGH!) and busy doing a report which require 2 months to do and i have to do within a week , siong rite? today just have presentation , my lecturer is very satisfy with my performance. its by the grace of God that i can pull through.


as i close my tiny , tweeny eyes, i pray to You. (haha)

every single day
spending time watching a fight
with main role of actor and actress
my father and mother

with the fight going on
turns the house upside down
with the noise they make
i can't study well

want to go out and study
but i cant leave my family
in this horrible state
all i can do is to pray

i ask God why
for giving me this father
who only scold vulgarities
and pay $0 for my school fees

everytime i ask for money
he will say no money
he work till late nights
where does it go?

one day i saw my dad drinking
tiger beers with his friends
i pretended that i didnt see him
walk away and cry.

cry to the Lord every nite
doesnt seen to have breakthru everytime
i will keep on pressing in
until You come so true in my life

bring me thru this period O Lord
give me the wisdom for my exams
let the peace of God fall in my family
that Your Glory may dwell.

another sms kills
telling me i'm rejected
rejected my application
my application for christian apparel sales assistant

need a job
need money
to ease my mum's burden
and settle my school fees

went back to school
not for CCA
not for FYP meeting
but for revision lecture

my burden is heavy
but Jesus burden is light
no matter how tough it was
i can make it thru with Him

"Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light."

Matthew 11:28-30

what a great day with Strikeforce!

the nite before i was suffering insomnia, and only manage to get into deep sleep at 6am whereby i went to bed at 1.30am.

Went for cg at jeremy's house, was an awesome by Bro valor and have great time of fellowship with members playing PS2 & having lunch.


Strikeforce in the living room of Benedict's house watching SFV!

today is appreciation cum welcome Strikeforce gatheringat Benedict's house at bukit timah. having alot of laughter and fun there. get to know more newcomers there and friendship with some of the pioneer grew. the atmosphere there is more like a family gathering , with warmth love & joy. this might be my last outing with Strikeforce

we watched drumline movie and at the end of the show , Pastor Tan & bro David came. Pastor Tan giving his speech to of us , to encourage us. one thing that pastor tan mentioned that convicted my heart was about the unity of the ministry . One grudges with one member will cause a dis-unity in the ministry and may affect the ministry in fulfiling vision that God place in this ministry.its not i bearing grudges someone , but there's someone i trying to increase my capacity of love to love that member.

after that , we proceed having our dinner , having fun chatting with newbies at the garden of benedict's house. at night, we watch SFV ( Strikeforce Funniest Video) to vote most funniest video.alot to say but too lazy to type.(will upload if i got the videos! Muahaha! Rallen , Nick & Collin will kill me!) we also watch other performing group performing.

we end our day happily. :]

The Prodigal(wasteful, wild, reckless) Son

A certain man had two sons. And the younger of them said to his father, 'Father, give me the portion of goods that falls to me.' So he divided to them his livelihood. And not many days after, the younger son gathered all together, journeyed to a far country, and there wasted his possessions with prodigal living. But when he had spent all, there arose a severe famine in that land, and he began to be in want. Then he went and joined himself to a citizen of that country, and he sent him into his fields to feed swine. And he would gladly have filled his stomach with the pods that the swine ate, and no one gave him anything. But when he came to himself, he said, 'How many of my father's hired servants have bread enough and to spare, and I perish with hunger! I will arise and go to my father, and will say to him, "Father, I have sinned against heaven and before you, and I am no longer worthy to be called your son. Make me like one of your hired servants." 'And he arose and came to his father. But when he was still a great way off, his father saw him and had compassion, and ran and fell on his neck and kissed him. And the son said to him, 'Father, I have sinned against heaven and in your sight, and am no longer worthy to be called your son.' But the father said to his servants, 'Bring out the best robe and put it on him, and put a ring on his hand and sandals on his feet.And bring the fatted calf here and kill it, and let us eat and be merry; for this my son was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.' And they began to be merry.


what an unconditional love that the Father has for the son...

waited for His promises to come to pass?
1 year? 5 years? 10 years?
are your dreams dying?
are your vision fading?
feeling everything happened
doesnt go the way you wish?

"For the vision is yet for an appointed time; But at the end it will speak, and it will not lie. Though it tarries, wait for it; Because it will surely come, It will not tarry."

Habakkuk 2:3

think again...

after a fatal sms
heart quenching
tears dropping
Scream in slience

how could this happen to me?
i make no mistake.
i have done my best,
ended up in this state.

trying the best i can
doing the best i could
people look down on me
i do not care

wanna cry out
but no one hears me
except one person
who always stand by me

"Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; For You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me "

Psalm 23:4

i dont know how
i dont know why
but one thing i know
i have God who will lead me out of the valley!

Mahaneh Dan

i'm in Mahaneh Dan,

been here for ages,

with cobwebs and dust over,

still in Mahaneh Dan.

location of Mahaneh Dan,

between Zorah and Eshtaol.

one distinct of the hornet ,

the other destiny be found.

how to get out Mahaneh Dan,

to know which is Zorah and Eshtaol.

dont want to follow the footsteps

of the man name Samson.

Jehovah Rohi , My Shepherd,

lead Your Servant here ,

get me out of Mahaneh Dan,

into Your promised land.

Kai Li

sniff sniff~
cute faces to brighten one's day.


attended prayer meeting at church jurong west premises... was a great time there to communicate with Him.

talking about city harvest church jurong west premises , it is a place where my dream ressurected , vision found , breakthru ... etc. worship at jurong west and expo is two different experience , frankly speaking.

Pastor ming says:

"Confess your trespasses to one another, and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The effective, fervent prayer of a righteous man avails much. "
James 5:16

fervent = to be consistently , reliable, stable.

hmmm.... it seen like i got to reconcile with someone in order to have my prayer avails much. who is the someone?

a true story

Esther( not real name) and John ( not real name either) get to know each other thru pen pal-ing. Been exchanged letter since they were primary school. there are times my member saw John put the letter from Esther inside his pencil case in his secondary school years and the letter was folded into a shape of a boat. by the time benny was at the age of 15, he brought Esther to christ. their friendship went off even further , they both served in a same ministry. 2 years later , John & Esther attached.They are the only couple i know who does not PDA(Public Display of Affection). but by looking at their both eyes, their eyes were focus on each other as if they are in their "er ren shi jie" which people can feel their love for each other.Both are each other's first love. Few years of courtship has led them to marriage soon

how pure is their love for each other , how pure is their love for God. wow...

this story touched my hearts. wow...

as i continued to serve Him with all my heart , with all my soul , with all my mind ( Mark 12:30), God is moulding an "Adam" for me.

to be frank , i under pressure... for something which i shall i not mentioned. Lord , guide me.

was reading one of my friend's blog, this slice of thoughts that has convicted my heart:

most of the time we have our own plans and we just want God to bless it for us and do it on our behalf so that it can benefit us.. and sometimes, we lose the focus on putting Him first instead of putting ourselves.. our agenda, our wishes, our desires.. bible says, seek FIRST the Kingdom of God and all His righteousness and ALL these things shall be added unto you.. Prioritize, Focused, Purpose.etc.. To be the person God wants me to be..

past few days din blog cos i didnt pay bills for my internet services , whoops~
quite sleepy now so i wont blog much today.


to bless u guys , my all time kaili's blog fans, here's my thought of the day:

"No pain no gain.Let go let God .God make all things beautiful in His times(Ecclesiastes 3:11)"

through pain , precious lesson gain.
through pain , precious tears shed.
through pain , you become stronger.
through pain , He is moulding you.






i'm sleepy.... zzz...zzz...ZZZ.
and of course i didnt sleep on handphone

words could not express my love for You,
You are beautiful beyond description.
i know i could trust my life to You,
As You will never let me go.

"I love You" , the most expressive phrase i could said.
the greatest thing in my life is loving You.

Lord Jesus.

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haha, above that is my thoughts for the day , nothing to do at home.
i'm jobless.... any office job, let me know asap :)

i realized i have not blogging my thoughts other than the lyrics & verses i put... past few days are eventful day~ haha. my thoughts now a little confused that's all. duh....

feeling great hearing Your voice.

wanna walk in the obedience of the Lord.
Rather obey than to sacrifice
Love is the willingness to sacrifice !

Jesus loves you , so do I!

Definition of Love

1 Corinthians 13: 1 - 13 (NKJV)

1 Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I have become sounding brass or a clanging cymbal.

2 And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.

3 And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, but have not love, it profits me nothing.
4 Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; 5 does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil;

6 does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth;

7 bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
8 Love never fails. But whether there are prophecies, they will fail; whether there are tongues, they will cease; whether there is knowledge, it will vanish away.

9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part.

10 But when that which is perfect has come, then that which is in part will be done away. 11 When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things.

12 For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know just as I also am known.

13 And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love.

Jesus Christ & Me!!! ahahaha!