Saturday, June 24, 2006

just a little weary of some guys that i knew...
they arent aint good steward of others' possession.
in the area of finance...
one could forget to claim and not telling the one he owe
the other , surplus after buying shared stuff is gone.
i not covet for this bits of dollars...
but it show how UNFAITHFUL and IRRESPONSIBLE you are
before you can be a faithful steward of other's people finance...

Monday, June 19, 2006

great day today , was on my way the tuition kid's house in a taxi , i started a conversation with the driver who is also a christain. she enjoy the chat with me through out the whole journey. upon reaching the destination , she charge me only 5 bucks out of $13.90. wow. praise the Lord.

seriously , i in trauma.

Sunday, June 18, 2006

Happy Father's Day

a song i wanna dedicate to my heavenly Abba Father:

Before the world begin
you were on His mind
and every tear you cried
is precious in His eyes
because of His great love
He gave His only son
everything was done
so you would come

Nothing you can do
to make Him love you more
and nothing that you've done
could make Him close the door
because of His great love
He gave His only son
everything was done
so you would come

Come to the Father
though your gift is small
brokeen hearts , broken lives
He will take them all
the power of the word
the power of His blood
everything was done
so you would come

Dear Abba Father,

Thank You for being a great heavenly Dad for all this years in this walk with You. i believe i not been a good daughter for all this while, however , my love for You is ever true and passionate.i always give lots of headache and heartache for You. time and time again , i make You disappointed. at times, i neglect You and ignore You when You trying to talk to me. Abba Father , i'm so sorry. i'm not perfect but this is not an excuse for me not to improve.

Abba Father, Your love is unconditional and everlasting. You always believe in me even no one believe in me. You always there for me , even i have so many friends around me. Abba Father , nobody else would understand me except You. You bottled up my tears and return me the Tears of joy and hope.Abba Father i thank You for the attention that i needed when i need a listening ear. i thank You for the assurance tthat You given me that You written in the word of God. thanks for the affection You given to tell me that i able to accept and love others for Your glory. Abba Father ,Your paitence and mercy that You have for me, make me wept and feel lost in Your presense.

Abba Father, its my fault to discount with You during the service about my earthly Dad. i wept like nobody business as never in my life i took the initiative to hug my earthly Dad. it "kills" to hug my earthly dad. Abba Father i'm sorry. Abba Father, as i sms my earthly dad , give me the courage and love to sms my earthly dad "happy father's day".i will forgive him for Your sake despite the things that he done when i young that hurts me so much. it may be tough but i will do it for You.he is isnt a bad earthly dad but he jus don't know how to love me.

Abba Father , i still thank You given me a great earthly father. teach me to be expressive towards my earthly dad. i believe through me , that my whole family will see Your glory.

i want to be the best daughter that i can be. thank You and thank You for everything. and i looking forward for fellowship with You. it seem like Father's day is practically everyday, hehe... my greatest phrase that i can say to You:

i love You and i love You, Abba Father! Happy Father's day!
Agape~ Kaili :]

Sunday, June 11, 2006

its been more than a week since i last blog. haha, last weekend was an awesome experience in Emerge conference. evey year of Emerge will have mind-blowing thing happening. 'll elaborate more when the pictures uploaded in CHC webby :]

this week was a SSSTTREEETTTCCHHH week . term test with flu and on-off fever and cough. but i thank the Lord for strengthen me and divine guidance through out the whole test. once again , on my first paper , i sat at the wrong seat in the exam hall. how embarrassed. previous semester i went into the wrong hall but thank God not the wrong paper. haha.... my case is still fine , i have a fren who even FORGET to take his test. how pathetic.

a little rant of mine: a fren of mine tot that go clubbing is totally cool and hip and wat-so-ever. yeah it can be cool in my opinion but those clubber boast about it: " i club mah , i'm cool leh, people see me dance"... YOU are totally UNCOOL.
and you turn me off.
the humble does not tell anyone they're humble ,the proud does.
same for the cool does not tell anyone they're cool, the uncool does.
how sad the proud wouldnt know this.

a cry of mine:
Psalm 6:2-9
"Have mercy on me, O Lord, for I am weak; O Lord, heal me, for my bones are troubled. My soul also is greatly troubled; But You, O Lord--how long? Return, O Lord, deliver me! Oh, save me for Your mercies' sake! For in death there is no remembrance of You; In the grave who will give You thanks? I am weary with my groaning; All night I make my bed swim; I drench my couch with my tears. My eye wastes away because of grief; It grows old because of all my enemies. Depart from me, all you workers of iniquity; For the Lord has heard the voice of my weeping. The Lord has heard my supplication; The Lord will receive my prayer. "


Thursday, June 01, 2006

so funny ... i have long list of To-Do list that is as long as a receipt, i still wanted to blog.just excited for the event in few hours to come!

satisfied with my previous entry. i think i being inspired by people like Ian especially , Julia , Kang Wei etc. in their style of writing. if there is an award call best Christian bloggers , i would nominate Ian.(read his blog and you will know why).

i like the way they express themselves in blog , simple words yet deep that give me deep grandmother story like someone with surname Yap(if you know who you are, i like reading your blog BUT just that you tend to have repetition, pure faith i should say about you , not dismoralised you , stil love yah with Jesus love k!haha. Bleahx)

in conclusion , its not about comparison between bloggers.

about 17 to 18 hours from now will be our long-awaited conference...


i so excited man!!! wonder what is the next step and challenges for another level as a youth! Expectancy is the seedbed for miracles!

in a Boulevard Of Broken Dream
a heart that sings Tiger Lily for the past one month
feeling like Stop Crying Your Heart Out
Sometimes has Straight Jacket Feeling
yet want to sing Accidently In Love
i started Learning To Breathe
and motivated by I Dare You To Move
don't wanna wait till Wake Me Up When September End
and stop procrastinating My Paper Heart

He is always faithful
my heart sings to Him How Great Is Our God
with the passion of Consuming Fire
that makes me I Could Sing Of Your Love Forever
on the Solid Rock i stand
Take All Of Me only You can
Touch me with Your Presense
and I'll be STILL know You are God