Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Tiger Lily by Matchbook Romance
We drive tonight
And you are by my side
We're talking about our lives
Like we've known each other forever
Time flies byWith the sound of your voice
It's close to paradise
With the end surely near
And if I could only stop the car
And hold onto you
And never let go (And never let go)
I'll never let go (I'll never let go)
As we round the corner to your house
You turn to me and said
"I'll be going through withdrawal of you
For this one night we have spent."
And I want to speak these words
But I guess i'll just bite my tongue
And accept someday, somehow
As our words that we'll hang from
And I I don't wanna speak these words
'Cause I I don't wanna make things any worse
Why does tonight have to end?
Why dont we hit restart
And pause it at our favorite parts
We'll skip the goodbyes
If I had it my way
I'd turn the car around
And run awayJust you and I
And I I don't wanna speak these words
'Cause I I don't wanna make things any worse
one of my favourite song :]

Monday, February 27, 2006

been busy for the past few days , somehow or rather my posts are pretty short. ha. anyway , saturday 25 feb was a fun & great day for me. in the day , i attended shirley & choon whee wedding at jurong west CHC(MAN! i miss this place!). shirley look so gorgeous & beautiful , choon whee look so yan dao, one thing i know , they both really very nervous ! the pioneer members of strikeforce were there for the holy matrimony. everyone of us look great , especially the sisters, most of them in their dress and skirt etc. we also took endless amount of snapshot and i realized i quite camera shy . < the pictures will be uploaded soon!)

after that , went for service and the preacher is Pst Ulf Ekman! i would say he is an anointed man, his words never fall to the ground, the word in right season! for the past 3 days , he preached 3 diffrerent message. And i'm blessed.

at night , after sending norman off at airport with the rest of the members , i went to attend wei li's birthday dinner with Bro Gabriel zone North east gang at swensen at T2 of changi airport. the gang consist of wei li herself , reid , michelle, jian feng , wei ming and i-dont-know-his-name brother. alot to say about the dinner , was really an enjoyable fellowship . we went home together (of course) , the journey back was much more fun as we have two sleeping" beauties " , which is reid and jian feng. ( should i upload the pic?lol..)

by the way , i no longer in the cross road. thanks to fishball KW to share the word with me on what pst Ulf preach on sunday service. i learn to obey Him in every situation and trust His under cover. i dont know how to share here but i would like to put up this as it was a revelation to me

"things may seen as favourable for you doesn’t mean its your calling , conversely is also true, things may not seen as favourable doesn’t mean it is not your calling. In everything , acquired from God in all things, especially in the area of our calling" (extract from my personal journal in 31/10/05)

i would want to add my previous point that this is testing for all of us that it will come to a point the Lord ask " will you still to stay faithful and obedience towards Me even in your most uncomfortable situation?" we will always say yes but when the real thing come , we react differently. God is not concern about what decision you make but its the attitude and your response to God & situation.

i believe i have overcome this area. :]

"Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus. "

Philippians 3 :13-14(NKJV)

Saturday, February 25, 2006

what is the season of yours?
mine is a season of crossroad. Am i in a test? probably...

Friday, February 24, 2006

Exams over!

wanted to blog ytd but i too tired and busy study for my paper just now... anyway , it is finally over. quite a long day just now , after my last paper ,having dinner with xiao ling zhi( ling ling ) then went to eugene's mum funeral.

actually , what i wanna share today is about the bible study class i attend on wednesday which is 2 days ago.

extract from the "Authority for victory " :

Jesus redeemed us from the curse so that the blessings of God can now come upon us:

  1. the presence and favor of God will rest upon our lives ( AMEN!)
  2. Your career and business will grow and God will bless your results. ( AMEN & AMEN!)
  3. Should an enemy plot against you , he will never win . Your Family and property( AMEN! i agree)
  4. if you do get sick , it will not last long . You will always recover quicly. (AMEN!)
  5. People will respect and honor you in everything that you do.(YES! AMEN!)
  6. you will have tremendous influence in the city, country and in your community.(AMEN!)
  7. you will have such a confidence and vision for living and you will serve God with joy and gladness of heart. ( WOW! AMEN!)
  8. In short , you will always be the head and not the tail. you will be in need of nothing(AMEN!)

about all those what God promises in the blessing in times to come, with One Man in exchange for His life that we might receive such great blessing.

True love is not i love Him because i need Him. it is I need Him because I love HIm. :]

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

i took 2 paper yesterday, which is software engineering & principles of marketing. both are quite tough. in fact, if i can remember what i studied , i probably would score with flying colours. this semester is too short to digest such a large syallbus. others take 6 months to study but we took 3 MONTHS to study , all thanks to TP fast system. i reached home at about 7 plus, dived to my bed without my dinner. i intend to sleep for 2 hours and i ended wake up midnite just now.

anyway 2 papers are down , left with another 2 papers . Kai li , jia you!

this period of exams i have been indulged myself with lots of food like chocolates and snack... i gonna gain weigh again~ UGH

after exams , my figure will be like this hamster...

fat & short .... haha...

my thought of the day:

"God is good all the time , all the time God is good! "

Rev Oral Roberts

Monday, February 20, 2006

i'm soaked...

i'm soaked...with His presense and He works in me by Holy laughter! WAHAHAHA
its was a great encounter with the Lord this afternoon , as i dedcided to seek the face of the Lord before i start studying.
its been weeks that the Lord impressed me with this verse :

"Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about what happens to you "
1 Peter 5:7 (NLT)

and this verse takes me a few weeks to find in my bible... hee.

i admit that i have lots of worries for my studies and my family situation. 90 % of what you worry about will not come to pass , as this is what Reverend Kong preached about it before. i thank God for His grace as i dont deserve to pass in one or two of my projects.

i may study the best that i know how unless i commiting it onto the Lord, i will not get the breakthru grades that God has intended for me.

"Commit your work to the LORD, and then your plans will succeed "
Proverbs 16:3 (NLT)

As we commit and TRUST in Him , He promised :

" ...But he who trusts in the Lord will be prospered. "

Proverbs 28:25 (NKJV)

my breakthrough is coming!

how much you allow God to work miracle in you is how willing are you gonna trust in Him... Faith pleases God and faith moves the hand of God.

" i wanna give up " and " i will fail" is not found in Ee Kai Li's Thesaurus & Dictionary. hee~

Sunday, February 19, 2006

HamHam trying to drink milky milky

this picture brightened up my day.

i will praise Your Name
even in bad times
i will hold on to the Flame
never let it die

what is the best thing i can offer to Him today?
A Sacrificial Praise

Saturday, February 18, 2006

part-time santa clause

y i post my title as "part-time santa clause" ? i bring 3 gifts in total which is 2 tops and a book.

today was quite long day for me. have a birthday lunch with jeremy's inner circle palz like enoch , da lao (darryl teo) , jian da ( xiu's bro) , euzanne , lorraine & her Bf , another darryl. i have a fish & chip from cafe cartel , and a lemon tea and cost me nearly $20 buck! (T.T) oh manZ! anyway ,was a great time of fellowship with them actually.

next part of the day is attending the most exciting highlight of the week , attend service in CHC! haha, pastor kong preach an awesome message today. in order for us to winsome person , we got to build relationship with the friends.

Pastor Kong come out with ten commandment on building relationship :

  1. Communicate
  2. Be interested in people on their world
  3. Make people feel important
  4. Smile when you meet people
  5. Encourage people
  6. Be long suffering
  7. Respect people
  8. Esteem others as better than yourself
  9. Use people's name more than usual
  10. Be complimentary of people

talking about the first point , it reminds me about my friendship with a friend in my ministry , whom i used to close to . due to lack of communication, friendship began to die. this is what pastor said. i try my best to maintain the level of friendship but it take 2 hands to clap . thus , i decided to lift up the friendship and move on.

apart from applying this principles in our new friends that we gonna reach out, it is applicable to people we are discipling or integrating to. it is to make them feel like home in church and establish stronger relationship to help each other grow in the long run.

i would like to recommend books by John C.Maxwell , Be A People Person that could help you on how to draw and win people to you.

what a day today ... tomorrow will be a better day :]

Friday, February 17, 2006

Miracle Maker

i was listening to this song "Miracle Maker " by Delirious?.i do not know why and i wept like nobody business. There is one part of the song its says , " just one touch , that is all i need .... " . indeed the Lord is God of miracles , according to our faith , His works can be done in our life. i decided to pray and worship Him with this song.

As i pray, the Lord bring me to turn the bible to the book of Isaiah.

"Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be afraid, for I am your God. I will strengthen you; I will help you;I will hold on to you with My righteous right hand. "

Isaiah 41:10

sometime in life we will feel weary , hopeless in certain area of our life ,we might tend to solve the problems ourselves and as a result , we became "christian aethist " unknowingly .You believe in Him but you never allow Him to take charge over the situation or seek God's help. this is what i learn in Authority for victory class. do not worry or fear over the cares of this world for the Lord will hold on to you with His righteous right hand as He promise in Isaiah 41:10.

"When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; And through the rivers, they shall not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned, Nor shall the flame scorch you "

Isaiah 43:2

wow, this verse bring another level in my conversation with the Lord.can you imagine , not even rivers , fire or flame can overflow , burned or scorch you. for one reason , we must trust the Lord totally that He can bring us thru the waters. The water flowing in the opposite direction of where we are heading to , it can be energy-draining and slow down your pace . this is true in our own life , the cares of the world and problems in life is just the waters in Isaiah 43:2 . i realized how many million times that the Lord has reminded us He is always with us , He will never leave you or forsake you.

One Desire :I love You.

Mugging at home

finally i can stay at home to mug among the mountains of lecture notes and tutorials ( except going mei mei house to exchange notes)

suppose today was a peaceful day for me, until my dearest mum spoke something that grief me.Anyway , just move on. our true identity is in CHRIST and nobody else on this earth.Amen! this month wasnt a great month for me , as God always promise...

"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose. "

Lord i only wanna be where You are...

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

i'm broke

i am broked
bought 2 gifts , one for my PCGL , one for Reid's zone member, wei li.
i stil thinking abt my family problem....
i just got to eat less, and shop less...
save money for my family.

as i allow God to take charge over my situation , i know my Lord God will bring me out of the wilderness of Egypt.

"I am the Lord your God, who brought you out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of bondage. "

Exo 20:2
Even though you are tired, life must stil goes on .... smile!

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Happy Valentine's Day!

happy valentine's day to everyone! Love ya everybody!
this year valentine's day i'm not alone, spending this day with the lover of my soul , JESUS!

today i should consider as quite Horrible day.
i dragged my 100kg feet to school to attend a WBAT evaluation . i dun really wish to go as i didnt complete my project on time or i should say none of my functions is working . after this semester , i begin to lost all my motivation in studies...hmmm, i think i begin to lost my motivation in IT . IT is Definitely not my field. what to do? in few months time i will be in my 3rd year, am i gonna give up? NO! i got to move on to get my diploma, for what reason i'm doing this? i doing it for my family, for my parents. they have fought so hard to bring me up to poly . how i wish i would have million dollar that i could help my dad to clear his debts and my sister overseas studies school fees. i feel the whole mount everest of burden is over me.

LORD, i need YOU.

hide me now
under Your wings
cover me
within Your mighty hands

when the oceans rise
and thunders roar
i will soar with You
above the storm
Father You are king
over the flood
i will be still
and know You our God

find rest my soul
in Christ alone
know His power
in quietness and trust

above and beyond all these, i know the Lord my God is always faithful. i have my breakthrough prayer today. He has rekindled the fire and the vision in me. at the end of the day , i always knew Someone is always there for me, that is none other than Jesus!

my passion...

a goal to be a percussionist CGL

Monday, February 13, 2006


its been a long time since i last came , i lost all my past entries since 2004, haiz