Friday, March 31, 2006

been busy doing my freelance designing project... it takes my whole week and now i have time for bloggie!! this week is quite " happening " .(hee hee)

Cg outing at Sentosa!!

Image@ Macromedia Fireworks & Adobe illustrator

artisite image taken by Ee Kai Li using Hewlett Packard digital Cam
~brothers' soccer game!

Before this happen , our beloved brother valor frisbie is stuck on the coconut tree. the members use the 5 balls that we brought( You name it , we have it , which ever type of ball you want) to hit the frisbie down. we ended up about 3 balls stuck on the tree. as you look at the picture , TK was that guy half naked, stand on enoch's shoulder to get one of the balls. :D

Lingling( the 1st lady):i'm the first! i'm the first! whoops, my slipper!

my two dearest , sweetest , prettiest, awesome and HIGH CALIBRE babes!! love you gals very much!!! red:SinMan , Black: Jennifer ;]


one of my satisfied Design for my customer !

i think i can do better. hee...

Bible study at YMCA
Pastor Audrey was teaching us in Authority for Victory classes. one thing that she preach reminds of us as the salt of the earth.

"You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt should lose its taste, how can it be made salty? It's no longer good for anything but to be thrown out and trampled on by men. "
matthew 5:13

how do we preserve our taste as a salt? we must be season with the word of God. how word of God can season us as salt of the earth? it is when you read His word , studying His word and most importantly, apply ( season) the word of God in our life. as you obey , He promise us that we are the head and not the tail , above and not beneath(Deut28:13 ), thus you will not be thrown out and trampled on by men. when you loses the flavour , in a dish of food , with or without you will be nothing .However, with the preservation of the taste(which is anointing , calibre , substance .etc) your presense makes a different , makes the dish of food taste better.

Government project service officer
my new temp job ( Thank God) . however , i feel there is some miscommunication between my agent and CPF...shall not elaborate. i pray that this weekend will have smooth operation for me. my birthday is this weekend!!

Outing with Stephanie and Lay chen
we have a great fellowship at causeway point. we laugh like nobody business and we shop a little and take neoprint! its been a long time since i last took...

my rant:
sometime its sad you have people close to you , yet they NEVER believe in you, they claim as your goodfren .i dont really consider as inner circle friend. whenever i soar high , you will try pull me down with your sceptical looks. hey let me tell you , i will not be affected by what you say , by what you think i of me, i know to you i will always lousier than you but i know i'm the head and not the tail. kingdom of God is not about competition , is not about who deserve to rise up or who rise up faster. if you think others are childish , please look at yourself before saying others. people who is not open to correction their attitude SUCKS. i pray i can love you more but you are forcing me to draw a line between you and me. you are infinitely miserable & says He who exalt himself will be humbled and he who humble himself shall be exalted. YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO LABEL ME AS A FAILURE. God has the right to label me as who am i.

the above character mention is fictional, any resemblence of a person is purely coincidence.


increase my capacity to love, i pray...

Monday, March 27, 2006

Irresistable Love

a simple life of mine
doing the things day in day out
never aware of Your presense
never expect You'll be mine

remember the days i touched by You
remember the days i encounter You
rememver the days i started to say
i love You i love You

every tears i shed
You bottled it up
tears of mourning and sorrow
returned to me as tears of joy

my experience with you
will never be a memories
but it will be
my daily life with You

when i drifted away
You never walk away
waiting for me
and believe i'll be back

at the end of the day
i may hurt You
i promised You
i will never lose You

You make me fall
fall into a river
a river that ever flows
called the Irresistable Love

Friday, March 24, 2006

today(23/03) i went to jasmine birthday BBQ at downtown east... went there machiam attending usher outing like last time. haha...

jasmine is schoolmates , study the same course and we are also in one same body of christ! :]
jasmine is also usher IC in our church , probably i was once like her in usher, so we are close also.

People thought that i don't like usher so i leave the ministry. however, i made my departure for my call in cell group.And of course , its an appointed time thus i made my departure. before i left usher , i did my part by rise up 2 more helpers to take over my role and responsibility. to go up another level as a leader in any ministry , you must rise up people to take over your position before you move on.

usher ministry has given me unforgettable experience.i learnt alot alot of things. my leadership skills was trained in this ministry, i can said what i am right now , 60% of it was being moulded by the leaders in Usher ministry. i also learnt how to smile ( haha), how to deal with people .more than this , i've become a more organised person, a person who is particular with details.(haha) talk abt this , been in Usher ministry for about .... 3.5 years. that's long... i remember i win an award as the Usher of the month for being faithful and available.

after all this ,i would like to thanks to these various leaders in Usher Ministry:

  • Pastor Derek ( of course lah , ministry leader)
  • Bro Bao tian ( my 2 years plus section IC)
  • Sister Beatrice (she trained me to be team IC)
  • Sister Yew mei( she makes me smile)
  • Sister Jing Jing( she is there for me in my darkest hour)
  • Sister Cai Yun
  • Bro Gabriel Ho ( haha, you make a legacy in my life)
  • Bro Wayne Chong( 2005 preaching challenge winner, You have taught me matthew 25. i taught other with Matthew 25 and their life changed)
  • Sister ShanShan a.k.a Isabel ( You make my last days in Usher a memorable one!)
  • Sister Shu Xian( my first team IC)

not forgetting my old friends in there!( too many to list!)

it seems like i doing promotion for usher ministry... i just wanna share some experience i have though i didnt put it in detail.

courtesy from

haha, anyway... waiting for jasmine to send me the BBQ pictures!!!

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

I need a job !!! HELP!!!

Monday, March 20, 2006

its been quite sometime since i last blog. been busy study for my Software engineering supp paper ( in fact , most of the stuff couldnt get into my mind. UGH!) and busy doing a report which require 2 months to do and i have to do within a week , siong rite? today just have presentation , my lecturer is very satisfy with my performance. its by the grace of God that i can pull through.

as i close my tiny , tweeny eyes, i pray to You. (haha)

Friday, March 17, 2006

every single day
spending time watching a fight
with main role of actor and actress
my father and mother

with the fight going on
turns the house upside down
with the noise they make
i can't study well

want to go out and study
but i cant leave my family
in this horrible state
all i can do is to pray

i ask God why
for giving me this father
who only scold vulgarities
and pay $0 for my school fees

everytime i ask for money
he will say no money
he work till late nights
where does it go?

one day i saw my dad drinking
tiger beers with his friends
i pretended that i didnt see him
walk away and cry.

cry to the Lord every nite
doesnt seen to have breakthru everytime
i will keep on pressing in
until You come so true in my life

bring me thru this period O Lord
give me the wisdom for my exams
let the peace of God fall in my family
that Your Glory may dwell.

Monday, March 13, 2006

another sms kills
telling me i'm rejected
rejected my application
my application for christian apparel sales assistant

need a job
need money
to ease my mum's burden
and settle my school fees

went back to school
not for CCA
not for FYP meeting
but for revision lecture

my burden is heavy
but Jesus burden is light
no matter how tough it was
i can make it thru with Him

"Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light."

Matthew 11:28-30

Sunday, March 12, 2006

what a great day with Strikeforce!

the nite before i was suffering insomnia, and only manage to get into deep sleep at 6am whereby i went to bed at 1.30am.

Went for cg at jeremy's house, was an awesome by Bro valor and have great time of fellowship with members playing PS2 & having lunch.

Strikeforce in the living room of Benedict's house watching SFV!

today is appreciation cum welcome Strikeforce gatheringat Benedict's house at bukit timah. having alot of laughter and fun there. get to know more newcomers there and friendship with some of the pioneer grew. the atmosphere there is more like a family gathering , with warmth love & joy. this might be my last outing with Strikeforce

we watched drumline movie and at the end of the show , Pastor Tan & bro David came. Pastor Tan giving his speech to of us , to encourage us. one thing that pastor tan mentioned that convicted my heart was about the unity of the ministry . One grudges with one member will cause a dis-unity in the ministry and may affect the ministry in fulfiling vision that God place in this ministry.its not i bearing grudges someone , but there's someone i trying to increase my capacity of love to love that member.

after that , we proceed having our dinner , having fun chatting with newbies at the garden of benedict's house. at night, we watch SFV ( Strikeforce Funniest Video) to vote most funniest video.alot to say but too lazy to type.(will upload if i got the videos! Muahaha! Rallen , Nick & Collin will kill me!) we also watch other performing group performing.

we end our day happily. :]

The Prodigal(wasteful, wild, reckless) Son

A certain man had two sons. And the younger of them said to his father, 'Father, give me the portion of goods that falls to me.' So he divided to them his livelihood. And not many days after, the younger son gathered all together, journeyed to a far country, and there wasted his possessions with prodigal living. But when he had spent all, there arose a severe famine in that land, and he began to be in want. Then he went and joined himself to a citizen of that country, and he sent him into his fields to feed swine. And he would gladly have filled his stomach with the pods that the swine ate, and no one gave him anything. But when he came to himself, he said, 'How many of my father's hired servants have bread enough and to spare, and I perish with hunger! I will arise and go to my father, and will say to him, "Father, I have sinned against heaven and before you, and I am no longer worthy to be called your son. Make me like one of your hired servants." 'And he arose and came to his father. But when he was still a great way off, his father saw him and had compassion, and ran and fell on his neck and kissed him. And the son said to him, 'Father, I have sinned against heaven and in your sight, and am no longer worthy to be called your son.' But the father said to his servants, 'Bring out the best robe and put it on him, and put a ring on his hand and sandals on his feet.And bring the fatted calf here and kill it, and let us eat and be merry; for this my son was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.' And they began to be merry.

what an unconditional love that the Father has for the son...

Friday, March 10, 2006

waited for His promises to come to pass?
1 year? 5 years? 10 years?
are your dreams dying?
are your vision fading?
feeling everything happened
doesnt go the way you wish?

"For the vision is yet for an appointed time; But at the end it will speak, and it will not lie. Though it tarries, wait for it; Because it will surely come, It will not tarry."

Habakkuk 2:3

think again...

after a fatal sms
heart quenching
tears dropping
Scream in slience

how could this happen to me?
i make no mistake.
i have done my best,
ended up in this state.

trying the best i can
doing the best i could
people look down on me
i do not care

wanna cry out
but no one hears me
except one person
who always stand by me

"Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; For You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me "

Psalm 23:4

i dont know how
i dont know why
but one thing i know
i have God who will lead me out of the valley!

Thursday, March 09, 2006

Mahaneh Dan

i'm in Mahaneh Dan,
been here for ages,
with cobwebs and dust over,
still in Mahaneh Dan.

location of Mahaneh Dan,
between Zorah and Eshtaol.
one distinct of the hornet ,
the other destiny be found.

how to get out Mahaneh Dan,
to know which is Zorah and Eshtaol.
dont want to follow the footsteps
of the man name Samson.

Jehovah Rohi , My Shepherd,
lead Your Servant here ,
get me out of Mahaneh Dan,
into Your promised land.

Kai Li

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

sniff sniff~
cute faces to brighten one's day.

attended prayer meeting at church jurong west premises... was a great time there to communicate with Him.

talking about city harvest church jurong west premises , it is a place where my dream ressurected , vision found , breakthru ... etc. worship at jurong west and expo is two different experience , frankly speaking.

Pastor ming says:

"Confess your trespasses to one another, and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The effective, fervent prayer of a righteous man avails much. "
James 5:16

fervent = to be consistently , reliable, stable.

hmmm.... it seen like i got to reconcile with someone in order to have my prayer avails much. who is the someone?

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

a true story

Esther( not real name) and John ( not real name either) get to know each other thru pen pal-ing. Been exchanged letter since they were primary school. there are times my member saw John put the letter from Esther inside his pencil case in his secondary school years and the letter was folded into a shape of a boat. by the time benny was at the age of 15, he brought Esther to christ. their friendship went off even further , they both served in a same ministry. 2 years later , John & Esther attached.They are the only couple i know who does not PDA(Public Display of Affection). but by looking at their both eyes, their eyes were focus on each other as if they are in their "er ren shi jie" which people can feel their love for each other.Both are each other's first love. Few years of courtship has led them to marriage soon

how pure is their love for each other , how pure is their love for God. wow...

this story touched my hearts. wow...

as i continued to serve Him with all my heart , with all my soul , with all my mind ( Mark 12:30), God is moulding an "Adam" for me.

to be frank , i under pressure... for something which i shall i not mentioned. Lord , guide me.

Monday, March 06, 2006

was reading one of my friend's blog, this slice of thoughts that has convicted my heart:

most of the time we have our own plans and we just want God to bless it for us and do it on our behalf so that it can benefit us.. and sometimes, we lose the focus on putting Him first instead of putting ourselves.. our agenda, our wishes, our desires.. bible says, seek FIRST the Kingdom of God and all His righteousness and ALL these things shall be added unto you.. Prioritize, Focused, Purpose.etc.. To be the person God wants me to be..

past few days din blog cos i didnt pay bills for my internet services , whoops~
quite sleepy now so i wont blog much today.

to bless u guys , my all time kaili's blog fans, here's my thought of the day:

"No pain no gain.Let go let God .God make all things beautiful in His times(Ecclesiastes 3:11)"

through pain , precious lesson gain.
through pain , precious tears shed.
through pain , you become stronger.
through pain , He is moulding you.

i'm sleepy.... zzz...zzz...ZZZ.
and of course i didnt sleep on handphone

Thursday, March 02, 2006

words could not express my love for You,
You are beautiful beyond description.
i know i could trust my life to You,
As You will never let me go.

"I love You" , the most expressive phrase i could said.
the greatest thing in my life is loving You.

Lord Jesus.


haha, above that is my thoughts for the day , nothing to do at home.
i'm jobless.... any office job, let me know asap :)

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

i realized i have not blogging my thoughts other than the lyrics & verses i put... past few days are eventful day~ haha. my thoughts now a little confused that's all. duh....

feeling great hearing Your voice.

wanna walk in the obedience of the Lord.
Rather obey than to sacrifice
Love is the willingness to sacrifice !

Jesus loves you , so do I!

Definition of Love

1 Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I have become sounding brass or a clanging cymbal.
2 And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.
3 And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, but have not love, it profits me nothing.
4 Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; 5 does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil;
6 does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth;
7 bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
8 Love never fails. But whether there are prophecies, they will fail; whether there are tongues, they will cease; whether there is knowledge, it will vanish away.
9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part.
10 But when that which is perfect has come, then that which is in part will be done away. 11 When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things.
12 For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know just as I also am known.
13 And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love.

Jesus Christ & Me!!! ahahaha!